I definitely wish I had a better day yesterday. Some parts of it were good like going to Walmart with Fran and watching a really good movie. The rest was pretty sucky though. I walked into math class yesterday and everyone was talking about staying up all night studying. The girl who sits next to me walks in and I asked her if we had an exam and she said no. Then, we look at each other and go..... "Omg we had an exam." I sat there staring at it having no idea what to do. I would honestly be surprised if I got over a 50%.
I was trying to do homework all night and my guy friend would not stop. I tried to explain things to him and he wouldn't stop asking questions. I told him my feelings and what I wanted and he asked more questions. How do you further explain? I said it a million times in a million different ways. I mean I told him what I needed to say and he kept asking. I kept repeating myself and everything I said was wrong to him. I would send a sentence and get back paragraphs of him psychoanalyzing me and criticizing me and everything else. For example I called him Matt Locke (as in the detective on tv as a joke at first because he kept asking questions). He freaked out and thought I was trying to threaten him. Then when I explained it was a tv detective and it was a joke he freaked out even more saying I wasn't explaining myself. That was the lesser of the million arguments. It got so bad I ended up crying and telling him not to message me anymore. I put a crying face and he turns it around and says how he's sorry for everything and wished he could wipe away me tears. Then, he posts a nasty status on FB and starts sending me more messages about how it's my fault for not explaining myself. I kept telling him I want someone to make me happy and I don't want to fight and he just wouldn't stop. It seemed like anything I said made it worse, and I couldn't lie and tell him I would be with him.
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