Craft/Paranoid.

Just got back from seeing The Guilt Trip. I went with my mommy. The movie reminded me of her and I. It was funny and crazy (kinda bad acting at parts). I would suggest watching it with your parents if anyone wants to check it out. If I chose to go on a road trip with my mom (which we have talked about doing), Idk where we would go. I would like to take a road trip to New York next year right before New Years. I would leave a few days after Christmas and make a lot of stops along the way. I might go with friends (If I have any). We will see what happens lol.

I did not get to sleep until 8 this morning. I was being paranoid about everything. I was even scared to go pee because I thought something was going to bite my butt. I was hyper and kept thinking I was hearing things. I know I am crazy, don't judge me lol. I finally fell asleep when my mom woke up and the sun came out.

<===== This is me when I am paranoid. It is actually really funny to watch I bet.

Last night I made an amazingly cute bracelet. It took me almost 3 hours to make. A long process, but I like making my own stuff sometimes :). I was never labeled as the crafty person (because one of my best friends was really amazing at drawing, painting, etc. I didn't want to copy her, so I decided to help her with projects and let her be the crafty one).

No I am off to make some random food/dessert thing with Hopey, so I hope everyone has a good night. Me cooking will be scary :P.

Demi and Dreams

I didn't go to sleep tonight. I managed to miss going to bed, so I guess I just didn't. I did the same thing last night. I have been really hyper for the past hour or so. My mom got up to go to work and we had some fun joking and talking and stuff before she left :).

I took some naps throughout the day, but during my naps I had some of the weirdest dreams. One dream was that my tooth had a cap on it and the cap had a pull string. I accidently pulled it and it started to unwrap (Don't ask me what that means). It was just a really weird one. I had two dreams about guys. They were both different guys and I don't know either of them. One was a new RA (in the dream not real life) and we knew each other. He was over at my dorm talking to the group of us (My old friends/roommates). Everyone else left to go somewhere and the minute they walked out the door he grabbed me and just held me forever. It was really adorable and I woke up thinking how amazing it would be if that happened. The guy was sweet, cute, amazing, and innocent. Ok, back to reality now lol. In the other dream the guy looked a lot different, but had a lot of the same things as the first guy.




I have a really bad habit (which I actually don't find to be a bad habit) of getting really stuck on things. Not in the normal way people think of it though. I mean I get stuck on a book, TV show, singer, etc. Normally it is someone or something I can relate to. Sometimes it is just because I find something interesting. With that being said I think Demi Lovato is amazing right now (I mean she probably is always amazing), but right now she is what I'm stuck on. She has had so many problems that she opened up about. She doesn't pretend to be perfect. She voices who she is and what she went through. She is funny about everything. It is truely inspiring to hear her story and I wish there were more people in the world like that. FOR THE FUNNY VIDEOS CHECK OUT: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D9A-fkyv3GI and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YdRqviub3Hs (There are more that are not from the X Factor, but I think her and simon are awesome).

Oh the Family!!!

I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas. I will say mine was pretty good, except I felt like I was dying. I guess I had an allergy attack or something and Christmas day I barely said anything. I was glad to be able to see my family. My cousins are amazing and cute. I miss all of them and I can not wait to visit more while I am home. I hope everyone got everything they wanted. I got a new iron and ironing board (which I asked for and still have no idea how to use). I got a new Northface jacket and another nice new Jacket. My mom made me an awesome blanket. I got the Freedom Writers book. I got a lot of other stuff, but I am going to stop listing things lol.

I went to my dads for Christmas Eve which I must admit was fun. We played a game called cards against humanity. I must admit those cards were definitely against humanity lol. My family is a crazy group of people. That game is one dirty game. If you like nasty games I would suggest it lol. I would honestly like to see what happened if me and my friends got our hands on that game. It would either be really funny or a huge disaster. It was funny with my family, plus pretty crazy (which is not surprising). Dinner was awesome and opening gifts was awesome.

We went to see my Aunty Betty a few days before Christmas, which was interesting. She shared a lot of crazy stories about the past. It was interesting to hear about her and my Grandmas crazy adventures. One story included how determained they were to show the boys they could go out and have a good time. Needless to say the story ended in managing to make it home, getting sick, angry husbands, and eventually passing out. My aunt, mom, Betty, and I laughed almost the entire time we were together. My Aunt Betty is someone the would remind me of Lucy (from I Love Lucy). Everytime we are all together there is some crazy adventure or story. Even more crazy is my Aunt Nancy (But we will talk about her another time).

The picture just fits, so I had to put it. It reminds me of many amazing people from my family and in my life. I believe in finding those people in your like that you just fit with. You can be crazy with them and know so much about them. They know your biggest secrets and dumb stories. Idk they just fit with you and are your best friends.

PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!!!!

I should be asleep right now, but I'm watching Phantom of the Opera instead. It is kinda boring at times, so I will be writing the blog during the boring parts. The music is pretty amazing and the story line is good. The movie is just kind of boring. If you would not like to watch it I would suggest looking up the songs. "The Music Of The Night" is a good song. When I was little I remember going to see this play in Toronto. I loved it back then. I had the shirt and the CD for a long time after. THIS CHICK IN THE MOVIE IS SUCH A DIVA. Talk about high maintenance. My goodness.

I know I had been doing list for a while, but I am going to take a break. Idk when or if I will continue to get to 50 lists. Maybe one day I will finish the list of lists. We will see what happens. THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA IS HERE!!!! Sorry I know that was completely off topic lol. It happens. That was a quite interesting part..... The phantom poisoned the diva's water (which made her make funny noises as she sang). It was pretty epic.

This movie just got a lot more interesting. One last thing before I watch it I got my grades:
English: A
Teaching: A
Meteorology: A-
Psychology: B
Statistics: C+

Night

Before I do not do it again, todays list is people that love you. My Mom and Dad and family for sure. I love them all too. I would like to say I know some of my friends do. I'm not going to list people, because I don't want to say names plus I would not like to accidently list the wrong people lol.

I just watched a movie called THE CHANGE UP. It is a pretty good movie. It was funny :). I got the movie abducation too. Idk if I want to watch it now or later. I will probably watch it now. But not yet because I have to finish this blog lol.

Random things that I feel like doing right now: I want to learn to ride a horse, cuddle with my husband (I don't have a husband yet though, so find my future husband and cuddle with him lol), and go ATVing. I know that is the weirdest list of things, but it's ok lol.

 <=======  I agree with this a lot. The night time is when I do a lot of things. It is peaceful and it makes everything more meaningful. Both night and day are beautiful, but we have both for a reason. The quote just says it all lol.

Weird/X-Factor

 I love watching the X-Factor. I probably will not try to continue to watch it. I saw a video on youtube so I looked it up and started watching it. I would encourage anyone who likes music and funny stuff to watch it. At least watch the first season anyway. I think SIMON AND PAULA are amazing together. They are like an awkward and crazy fairytale. I think X-Factor is a lot better than American Idol. People wear the weirdest things though. Honestly I would like to walk up to some of the people and say, "Did your dog pick out what you have on today?" They look like they are a 5 year old who got to pick out their own clothes for the first time.

I will be waking up early tomorrow and I know it's late, but I am watching the X-Factor. GOOD LUCK WAKING ME UP!!!!!! My ringtone is loud though, so chances are I will wake up. It's just a matter of getting me not to go back to sleep.

On a different topic I think we all should be able to be weird. Weird is acceptable. I mean life is weird and people were not made to be normal. Have you ever seen how weird we all actually are. I think everyone should be accepted for their weirdness. If your weirdness doesn't fit with someone elses weirdness, then you need to find someone who fits your weirdness. Ok I hope that made sense to everyone lol. YES!!! I'M WEIRD LOL.

One last thought: Does anyone ever notice that some socks make your feet look like they have a really odd shape?

Shooting?

Well I made Mac and Cheese today with the help of my awesome friend Travis. Going to be leaving the dorm for break tomorrow. I had a lot of junk that I wrote down and was about to post, then I decided to delete it. The most I will say about today is it had its ups and downs. Hopefully things go ok when I am back in my home town. 

One thing I would like to say is about the shooting in Connecticut. How does that even happen? I mean the kid who did it was about the same age as me. He just shoots up and elementary school. What was his reasoning? There is no reason for anyone to do it, but I would hope something had happened to make him do it. They are in my prayers. I wish there was more we could do. Can't the world do something to stop all this hating and heartlessness.

 <==== I wish people could take this advice. 

Goodnight all. Hope you have a good one.

Shy and stuff

Welp I have officially figured out my personality type. I bet you all are dying to know that my personality type is........... SHY!!!! Go figure lol. It's not really a bad thing. I guess I don't even realize I'm being shy anymore. I thought I was being outgoing and people still will be like no you were really shy lol. 

I keep forgetting to blog, especially this week because I had exams and was hanging out with people all week. I will do two lists today, which I have to look up. The next one is.... Reasons why you love your significant other. For starters I have no significant other right now. It would be nice if I found a guy I was interested in soon, but for now I am single.

Next list (hopefully I will be able to write this one). The list is high points of your autobiography. I guess if I were to write a autobiography I could choose some points. Here are the first 10 that come to mind:

1. Going to college.
2. Opening up about being a Christian.
3. Dating a few of the guys I really care about.
4. Some things about my best friends.
5. My family and me.
6. Observation.
7. What I want to do with my future.
8. A little about my high school.
9. My decision to be a teacher.
10. About my mom and I.

 <===== Very true!!!! I do this lol.

Lastly, exams are over now. I finally have a chance to do some things. Break will be good because I will get to hang out with some awesome people when I go home :). I have a lot to do. I will be at my dorm for a few more days to get things situated and go to a Pot Luck tomorrow night. I have to get my ticket taken care of during the day. Tonight I will probably be going to watch movies at Travis's. This will be the last time I can see him before going home.

Ironic/Never love you less

Well me and my mom are a lot alike. I love her to death and she has always been my go to person. We are not perfect and we have a tenancy to fight about stupid stuff (which is a completely different story). Like I said in my blog yesterday I was trying to save a cat. Well my mom apparently saved a dog before she went to work this morning. I picture my mom running around my home town and chasing after this poor scared dog. Without thinking, she took the dog home, set up a kennel in the garage, and gave the dog food and water. As everyone else was mad about the dog being in the street and trying to get to work on time, my mom did the opposite. She was late to work, so she could save the dog. Yes, I know most of you probably think me and my mom are crazy (which we are). Just hopefully we can find the owners of the dog or another good home for the dog to go to. I said I would look for a home and my mom is going to wait to make any other decisions until I come home from break. I will say my mom doing these amazing things everyday is the reason I turned out to be such a good and caring person.

Things you want your children to know about you (this is the list for today): I honestly would like my children to know anything and everything about me. If they want to ask I will tell them. Probably the most important thing that I will want them to know and I will tell them every time something bad happens (even if I am mad or disappointed in them). Nothing they could ever do would make me love them less. I think as long as they know this they will always have someone to come to and it will give them the freedom to talk to me about anything.

Cat and Stats

First off anyone like statistics? I mean I'm pretty good at it.... Until I get to the more complicates Z-Score formulas and Hypothesis Testing. When it comes to those topics it just doesn't work. I will master them before I go to sleep though. That is my goal for the rest of the night. There must be some key point to doing these things that I have been missing.

Today's list is acts of kindness you have committed. Throughout the course of my blogging I might share some of these stories with you all. I am proud of the things I have done in my life and doing things to help others makes me happy. With that being said I feel I did those things because I cared and I wanted to, not to brag about them. I know making a list wouldn't be bragging, but it just doesn't feel right. One day I will make a list to remind me of the things I have done. When I am having a bad day it would help me realize there are better battles to fight and I can do great things.

With that being said one story I would like to share about tonight and it's about a cat. Me and one of my good friends use to find stray cats all over the place last winter. We would try to save them, because they were always out by roads and it was really sad. We never actually saved one unfortunately. Tonight there was a cat on the edge of a bridge and it was just sitting there not moving. I passed it twice trying not to do anything, because I knew it probably wouldn't come to me. I got almost all the way back to my dorm and realized I had to try. I went back and it was still sitting in the same spot. I got out of the car and it just looked at me. It stayed for a few seconds and I said come here buddy. It looked at me again and ran away. At least I got it off the bridge. I just feel bad when I see an animal out in the freezing cold.

<== Not the cat I saw, but it's a cute kitty in the snow.

Song Shuffle

Yesterdays list would have been, The best days of your life (work with me on this one because I really have a lot of best day's of my life). As I started writing this list I realized I have had a lot of amazing days. So for today's list I would like to say I will not pick out the best days. Some good days were being born, my first kiss, and finding my college family :).


Today's list is songs for the soundtrack to my life (because their are so many I will put spotify on shuffle and pick ones that relate to my life in any way). Except the first one came to mind, so I will write that one down lol: (2-9 are from shuffling and picking out what relates).

1. Perfect - Pink.
2. I'm Waiting - The All American Rejects.
3. So Small - Carrie Underwood.
4. Let's Go - Calvin Harris ft. Ne-Yo.
5. Take A Little Time - Jeremy Camp.
6. Time After Time - Quietdrive.
7. The Scientist - Coldplay.
8. If It Means A Lot To You - A Day to Remember.
9. Misery Business - Paramore.
10. Who We Are - Evans Blue.

Each song has different reasons why it relates to me. They are all good songs and you should check them out if you get a chance. Next week is exam week so I have a lot of studying to do tonight. I will be up most the night. I may blog again later if I get a chance. For this blog I will keep it short though.

Funny story: Last night I was out with a christian group at a Christmas party. A few of the people there know me really well, but the rest I had just met. We were playing ninja and I lost to one of my good friends. I forgot that I wasn't with my normal group of friends and I shouted "Ball Sucker." really loud. Everyone in the room (like 25+ people) stop what they are doing and look at me. I was so embarrassed lol. The friends I was with just started cracking up. It was bad. So much for everyone thinking I was the good little christian girl haha.

<======== Btw I think this is an adorable idea and I want to do it :).

I just need to remember to actually do it lol.

What you meant to say!!!

 I know I posted a blog a few hours ago, but I got inspired. Basically I am going to take the first five statuses in my news feed on facebook. Give my translation/opinions of them. We will see what happens lol.

Status 1: "Shooters whattt!"

Me: What are you shooting? Just so you know you could have made your point with one T. I hope you have a designated driver tonight.

Status 2: "God is just soo amazing. We should be praising God for everything!"

Me: I happen to agree with you so I am going to like this status. I am assuming you are probably bored right now though and figured facebook would help you praise God and get other people to agree with you. Good status.

Status 3: "It takes seconds to say hello, forever to say goodbye, but what you leave behind is what makes it so hard to let go. <3"

Me: I'm assuming you are bored too. I like the status, except I have heard it before. It is one of the better statuses, so I will give it a thumbs up. Continue posting ma'am.

Status 4: "Seriously come through my lane with a ring from Tiffany's ring that cost well up in the thousands of dollars and pull out a food stamp card to pay for your food. You kidding me? God I wish I could say something to people."

Me: Maybe she will see your facebook and get the hint or maybe she just doesn't care. I'm glad facebook was there to support you in your anger over food stamps and rings.

Status 5: "Why do bugars exist?"

Me: This is either an inside joke, you spelled something wrong, or you like to ask really weird things. The chances that anyone will know what your talking about are slim to none. I would say click that delete status button girl.

Cryings Better than Anger

I'm starting with a list, same rules as normal. I didn't do one last time I blogged, because I was ranting. The best things that happened in the last year:

1. Getting more involved on campus.
2. Having my first job.
3. Managing to stay alive.
4. Observations for teaching.
5. Making some good friends and reconnecting with one of my best friends.
6. Growing as a person.
7. All the random fun times.
8. Starting a blog? I guess it came to mind.
9. Staying loyal to my values (mostly).
10. Being weird.

For some reason I could think of a million, but I couldn't think which ones were the best. I started getting really random toward the end. It happens though.

I'm going to miss my observation class. As I was leaving they gave me hugs and thank you notes. The whole time I was thinking "please don't do anything to make me cry guys." They were telling me how I should try to get a job at the school they are going to be going to, that way I can teach them. They were so sweet. Well look at me being sensitive lol.

<===== I found this quote/picture and I really liked it. I definitely agree with it. I like to take the calm root most the time (Not saying I haven't got bad before lol). 

Matt Locke

I'm going to me doing homework and study most the rest of my semester. I only have like a week more, so it shouldn't be to hard. It's just stressful. I might be on edge a little for the next week. I just wanted to keep things drama free and focused on exams. It does not seem to ever happen that way.

I definitely wish I had a better day yesterday. Some parts of it were good like going to Walmart with Fran and watching a really good movie. The rest was pretty sucky though. I walked into math class yesterday and everyone was talking about staying up all night studying. The girl who sits next to me walks in and I asked her if we had an exam and she said no. Then, we look at each other and go..... "Omg we had an exam." I sat there staring at it having no idea what to do. I would honestly be surprised if I got over a 50%.

I was trying to do homework all night and my guy friend would not stop. I tried to explain things to him and he wouldn't stop asking questions. I told him my feelings and what I wanted and he asked more questions. How do you further explain? I said it a million times in a million different ways. I mean I told him what I needed to say and he kept asking. I kept repeating myself and everything I said was wrong to him. I would send a sentence and get back paragraphs of him psychoanalyzing me and criticizing me and everything else. For example I called him Matt Locke (as in the detective on tv as a joke at first because he kept asking questions). He freaked out and thought I was trying to threaten him. Then when I explained it was a tv detective and it was a joke he freaked out even more saying I wasn't explaining myself. That was the lesser of the million arguments. It got so bad I ended up crying and telling him not to message me anymore. I put a crying face and he turns it around and says how he's sorry for everything and wished he could wipe away me tears. Then, he posts a nasty status on FB and starts sending me more messages about how it's my fault for not explaining myself. I kept telling him I want someone to make me happy and I don't want to fight and he just wouldn't stop. It seemed like anything I said made it worse, and I couldn't lie and tell him I would be with him.

Invisible apples

Well right now is my break in between classes. I have so much to get done today, but I still want to write my blog right now. Probably because I like to procrastinate this semester lol. Today's list is (drum roll please) Good things that happened this week. I guess I could count Sunday, but I shall try to do things that only happened yesterday :). First ten things (If I can come up with 10 because it's only Tuesday lol):

1. Getting time to take a nap.
2. Having my English homework done early and remembering to bring it to class.
3. Getting to talk to one of my sisters/besties for life last night.
4. Meeting people yesterday.
5. Getting to hang with a few old friends, plus meeting some of their new group.
6. Playing apples to apples.
7. A fun car ride to and from McDonald's.
8. Learning about paranormal stuff.
9. Having a bunch of fun conversations.
10. Being in an overall good mood about life :).

Yay for good things that happened yesterday and today. I could tell you all a million stories about yesterday, but I think I will skip that. Yesterday was definitely memorable though. This Friday and next Friday are going to be awesome. I just need to get all my school work done. If not I may not be able to go out and have fun this weekend, which would suck.

I have some decisions to make regarding this summer, which is not an easy choice to make. I guess I will see what happens with time. Any of the options would be amazing and I would make the best of them. It's going to be a fun summer. (I need to do good for the rest of this school year first though lol). 

Christmas music has never really been my thing. For some reason I have been liking a few Christmas songs lately. Keep that on the down low though. I still don't enjoy most of them, so I don't want people being like omg lets listen to Christmas music all the time because Lauren likes it now.

<===== For some reason I found this funny.... So I put it on here lol. Yepp thats how things happen lol. 

Cheese Creepin!!!!

<====== My cooking skills fit with this perfectly. Everytime I mess something up I could just add cheese (or eat cheese if that doesn't work lol). Plus I love fried things, like fries (they are fried right?). Anyway yea cheese and fried stuff should be the two main food groups in life. Plus I love Miranda Lambert, but she's not a food group. She talks about food though. Alright I will shut up and talk about something else now (which is pretty much not shutting up lol).

My list today is things that bring me joy (my favorites). This shall be interesting because I have a lot, so again first 10 that come to mind :):

1. Helping people and seeing other people happy
2. Cheese
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. Trying new things
5. Smiles and laughs
6. Showers
7. Family and friends
8. Music
9. Quotes and stuff
10. Growing as a person

I know you probably laughed at my list, which is fine because it brings me joy (even though I wouldn't know that you laughed at it). Or maybe I am stalking you, don't look behind you, or under the bed. I might be there. I'm so weird right now. I should probably take a nap or do homework. Or attempt to do homework in my sleep (not gonna work, but I could always try). Yea I'm not in a serious mood today, so we are not going to blog about anything serious. Except maybe the work serious, because serious is a serious word. SERIOUSLY!!!!!!! Alright I need a nap, goodnight. AIFNORGIDSFIOEFNIODFNIOFVKVJO :).

Books

The next list is places I want to go, but I will skip that for now. The next one is books I have read. Once again I will keep the list at 10:

1. Marley and Me (John Grogan)
2. Beach House (Danielle Steel)
3. Impossible (Danielle Steel)
4. 1st to Die (James Patterson)
5. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
6. Goodbye to Shy  (Leil Lowndes)
7. 2nd Chance (James Patterson)
8. 3rd Degree (James Patterson)
9. Men are from Mars Women are from Venus (John Grey)
10. Kiss the Girls (James Patterson)

Well if you haven't noticed I read a lot of JAMES PATTERSON. He is pretty awesome. The thing I like the most is the connections you build to the characters. There is always a really weird twist in his books. I absolutely love reading his novels.

Last night was interesting. Another guy decided he liked me (which was really awkward). But I had a good night overall. It was fun hanging with friends and pulling an all nighter again. I wish we would have stayed up till church, but unfortunately we fell asleep. It was overall a really fun night. I want to start playing Euchre more though. I miss it so much and we finally got to play list night.

Also, I apparently can be asleep and open my eyes to have a conversation with someone? I don't know how that is possible, but yea it happened lol. It was really weird.

<======== I thought this was cute lol.

DELETE!!!!

Today's list is places I have been. I have been a lot of places, so these are the few I remember:

1. Hawaii
2. Michigan (obviously)
3. Florida
4. Mexico
5. Maine
6. Texas
7. Bahamas (I think)
8. Ohio
9. Canada
10. Indiana
11. Illinois
12. Missouri
13. Alaska
14. Arizona
15.  I know I have been more places, but I can't remember lol.

Yea, I have been a few places already lol. Saw some amazing things and had some good times. Today has been an interesting day, but I won't say much about that lol.

One thing I would like to address is the facebook world. Though I enjoy having a facebook there are some things that get to me. I will not lie and say I have never deleted anyone, but I apologized right away and admitted i was wrong for doing it. Yes, I understand cleaning off your friends list and getting rid of people who you don't remember. I just don't see the point in purposely deleting someone. I would imagine it hurts on both sides. Plus, if you have someone on your profile who you are fighting with, try blocking yourself from seeing their posts. It's a whole lot better than causing the pain of deleting people and stuff. I mean we are adults and we should find more mature ways to settle differences. Though I can handle being deleted, I know how it would feel if I was another person. I was discussing it with a good friend and she shared that it hurts her a lot when people do stuff like that. It is basically the feeling that you can get thrown away like that. Are humans really that disposable that you can take them out of your life with the click of your mouse? 

Anywho enough of my rant lol. I really have to pee and I'm listening to I'm a barbie girl (thanks to my friend who wanted to listen to it). Hopefully we can get a group of people to play Euchre tonight. We have church in the morning though (hopefully we don't cause to much trouble :P).